Well, isn't THIS a pisser...

Cancer, stage 4... if cancer were a 12 step program, then 4 steps wouldn't seem so bad. BUT in this case there's only 4 stages, so you do the math Sherlock. Stacey honey, you're a dear, but there's nothing you can do. Jessamine, so are you, there's nothing you can do either. Salvadore, Mr. West, Deb, Becky, Nicole (both of ya), Jen Jen, nothing you can do but stare at me even if you were here now. It's everywhere, bone marrow, lymphatic system, lungs, abdomen, and who knows, maybe a CT scan of the brain will come up with something too. I've lost one mom, I don't want to lose another so soon. Thats 2 generations from the female side of the family lost in 5 years.

What does that have to do with this, nothing really. Yeah, I'm looking for random thoughts to take my mind off whats happening, do you have a problem with that? There is no cure, only brief remission at best, total loss of all energy, bed ridden, I'm thinking about it now, happy? 100 temp means a hospital stay. 101 could be fatal if it's an infection. Happy holidays.

Forgot something

I had a good evening yesterday, movies, friends, and a Southern Hurricane. Nice drink, 1.5 oz. Southern Comfort, 1/2 oz cherry syrup, and some 7up in a tall glass with ice. Tastes like candy LOL.

I did see a beautiful site yesterday. She looked WONDERFUL. I can't let my life drag her down into a depression. I can't lean on someone on the brink of collapse. I'm happier when my friends are happy. You might not completely understand, but nights like last night, leave me warm and fuzzy.

Days like today, make me long for the warm fuzzy nights.