Hmmmm, kind of a slow day with lots of thoughts

Maybe I'll get off easy today and tomorrow... That would be nice. E mail's are away, products posted, May's Webtrends report is complete, not much left to do. JC has an important person's B-day to think about today, I hope she feels ok. A friend is here anytime she needs it.

It's funny, I've always used birthdays as the day to remember for absent friends and family. JC seems to have chosen the day of the passing, or at least that day affects her more. I wonder why we pick the days that we pick. Maybe it's because we both run on a yearly calender. That is to say at least for me a new year is really a NEW year. October 9th comes first, before the 25h. Maybe it's because that day comes first that it gets the most attention. Maybe it's because Nan made clear to me the tradition is the Birthday Drink, not a remembrance of the last day.

It's a sad day today. All sorts of memories. All I can say is I wish I had been able to be at my friends side and she could've been by mine many years ago. It really would've helped me to avoid a REALLY stupid mistake, and I wish I could've been there for her to try and somehow make thigs better. Friends take care of each other. You can go on autopilot, and they make sure you're ok while you go through whatever you need to go through. You can't take the pain away, but you can go through it with them and try to give THEM strength to get by. Friends reinforce you from the inside out. I personally can handle anything if I know I'm not alone when it's all over.