thank god it's... just another day

[mikeeeee]

Stace was offered a great opportunity by her mom. To be fully funded to go back to school at SF State. The only catch is that they want her to move home so she can do it full time.

The wise choice is to do it. She's mentioned that I'm a factor in the decision. I can't be. I can't let me be a factor to her. Of course I WANT her to stay. DUH.

I think for her own life she needs to say yes. I don't, as a matter of fact I know I couldn't move back home after being on my own and being over 20 years old. But she could pull it off. I feel a little like if I weren't around at all she'd have said yes already.

I need to leave Northern California. Everything it telling me to get the fuck out of Dodge. I've overstayed my welcome.

On top of everything else, a little more heartbreak thinking about everything from the past year. Right now I'm a shadow of the person I was. In a good way here and there, but mostly not.

I asked if anything else could go wrong, remind me to knock on wood.

Time to do a reassessment of my position in life. I normally do this privately around my B-day and Xmas. We're starting early this year.

Comments

[blueashke.livejournal.com]

I'm so glad I thought to check my FL while I gave blood this afternoon

[mikeeeee.livejournal.com]

your fl?

[blueashke.livejournal.com]

friend's list...

[mikeeeee.livejournal.com]

On lj? Well, it's not like it's classified information though I'm sure you weren't supposed to learn about anything through LJ. You can let them tell you, or you can create drama. It's up to you.

[blueashke.livejournal.com]

I'm glad I'm where I can't create drama at the moment... because I shouldn't take it the way I am right now... though I wish I could call Rob... but I still have a big needle in my arm.

[mikeeeee.livejournal.com]

You pussy, it's probably just a 20 or 22 ga. needle. Not even an 18 like medics use. =)

Yeah, you're response to your emotions, is correct. You shouldn't take it the way you are right now. I'd be proud of you if you kept it under control. An area I lack in personally sometimes. Your brain is telling your emotions that it's out of line. Listen to it before there's stupid drama going on. Don't give in to the power of the dweeb side.

[mikeeeee.livejournal.com]

YOUR, not you're. I'm tired, it's friday.

[blueashke.livejournal.com]

EXQUEEEEZE??? For platelet donation??? Try 17 babe... lol... and I wasn't complaining about the size, just that it makes it difficult to type because I only have one hand free.

If you haven't told her I know already yet, do me a favor and don't... I'm gonna do my best to lock it down and go from here... I'm all done now... and off to go to Helen's birthday party. I need to call Stace later about something else. Think you guys can handle a houseguest in two weekends, possibly? not next weekend... the one after, and only maybe,.... anyway, I'm out... thanks hon. MUAH

[mikeeeee.livejournal.com]

I told her already thinking maybe I did let some secret out. So no need to pretend you don't know. Talk to her. It's better then yelling in a rage to someone for no reason. Especially family.