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Jul. 14th, 2005 12:49 pmI feel like I'm not making any progress this year... been re-reading entries, and I'm up on weight, had to drop weight lifting because of scheduling and just not being able to get up at 0600 every morning, Jim being a pain about it, etc. We've learned our lesson.
Weekend was fun, with a drive to the Redwoods, playing in a river... in my underwear lol, exploring, lots of driving, road BJ's hehe.
The start of this week was really hard though. REALLY. I don't care to go into details here, I just, It's tough when you know what people are thinking for a while and they don't just say it. It makes me feel insecure. Insecurity is actually contagious I think! I don't want to be forced into situations, or to HAVE to act a certain way, or do things how someone else prefers it. I like doing my own thing.
Sometimes I don't want my girlfriend to be the person to help you get over or through something. That's why you have friends! Other things, I want to be able to go out and have a drink with someone that I've dated without drama or anything like that. I want to let others do the same and not have to worry either. And I never worry. Maybe I'm strange that way.
Weekend was fun, with a drive to the Redwoods, playing in a river... in my underwear lol, exploring, lots of driving, road BJ's hehe.
The start of this week was really hard though. REALLY. I don't care to go into details here, I just, It's tough when you know what people are thinking for a while and they don't just say it. It makes me feel insecure. Insecurity is actually contagious I think! I don't want to be forced into situations, or to HAVE to act a certain way, or do things how someone else prefers it. I like doing my own thing.
Sometimes I don't want my girlfriend to be the person to help you get over or through something. That's why you have friends! Other things, I want to be able to go out and have a drink with someone that I've dated without drama or anything like that. I want to let others do the same and not have to worry either. And I never worry. Maybe I'm strange that way.
