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Wow what a night
Oct. 16th, 2008 12:49 pmI know what's changed. I'll explain later, or in another post from the laundrymat, but I think I've been in a depression for over a year now.
Why do I think this?
Leaving Lamont's, moving away from CAP (especially after Fossett), not renewing my EMT and not caring at first, not being happy with my work, slipping ethic, hiding in softball, being less than you deserve, it's all signs of a depression with a slow, downward spiral. I wish someone could've seen it sooner. Before any of this happened with Jen and him I was slipping away. I didn't know. I'm sorry.
Why do I think this?
Leaving Lamont's, moving away from CAP (especially after Fossett), not renewing my EMT and not caring at first, not being happy with my work, slipping ethic, hiding in softball, being less than you deserve, it's all signs of a depression with a slow, downward spiral. I wish someone could've seen it sooner. Before any of this happened with Jen and him I was slipping away. I didn't know. I'm sorry.
