thank god it's... just another day

[mikeeeee]

Stace was offered a great opportunity by her mom. To be fully funded to go back to school at SF State. The only catch is that they want her to move home so she can do it full time.

The wise choice is to do it. She's mentioned that I'm a factor in the decision. I can't be. I can't let me be a factor to her. Of course I WANT her to stay. DUH.

I think for her own life she needs to say yes. I don't, as a matter of fact I know I couldn't move back home after being on my own and being over 20 years old. But she could pull it off. I feel a little like if I weren't around at all she'd have said yes already.

I need to leave Northern California. Everything it telling me to get the fuck out of Dodge. I've overstayed my welcome.

On top of everything else, a little more heartbreak thinking about everything from the past year. Right now I'm a shadow of the person I was. In a good way here and there, but mostly not.

I asked if anything else could go wrong, remind me to knock on wood.

Time to do a reassessment of my position in life. I normally do this privately around my B-day and Xmas. We're starting early this year.

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I told her already thinking maybe I did let some secret out. So no need to pretend you don't know. Talk to her. It's better then yelling in a rage to someone for no reason. Especially family.